Today I'm starting this blog for you, you want nothing to do with me anymore and i understand, but i know it will be hard specially since you have been the one person that i trusted and loved the most for these past 4 1/2 years. Whenever i feel the urge to call or text you i will write. whenever i miss you i will write. i hope one day you read this....i hope we read this together and laugh a it. *sigh* i don't think it'll happen but that's all i have now memories, dreams, and a little bit of hope. they say you never realize what you have until it's gone but i always knew what i had, i always knew you were special, i knew that if i ever got married it'd be to you if i ever had kids they'd be yours but i was always too scared and stubborn to make the next step. I never let myself completely give in to love. Carlos, my heart, my love, my life! I am sorry for everything bad i ever did and said to you. I am paying the consequences now and if your happy i will try to be happy for you.