XOXO

Hey Babe. I'm so glad we're together. I'm at a point right now that i feel so in love. I'm so happy because i never thought I'd feel true love in my life. we've been "together" about 5 yrs now and all along though my feelings for you we're true i never really felt satisfied. i always felt like something was missing like i was missing out on life for being with you. in my mind you were not the one. it sucks but that's how i saw it. I don't know if i fell in love with you or if i was always in love and didn't know how to interpret it. i like to think i always was. and finally realized it. it would make me sad to think that i really would never experience what loving someone truly madly deeply would feel like. but now i know thanks to you. you know how you say i make your ex or your weird friends seem like angels compared to me not in those words but you get me right?. well compared to the feelings i have for you, any feelings i thought i had before are insignificant. the "pain" they caused me seems like a tiny prick compared to immense heartbreak i felt when i was losing you. the "love" i felt for them is nothing absolutely nothing compared to the feelings i have for you now. all of that was BS. i don't even consider them. i don't miss them don't love them don't hate them don't feel anything I'm indifferent. before it was a big deal because i met you at 19 and all the "heart break" and "love" was fresh but now after 6 yrs. i hardly remember those people. i have short term memory and the only thing in it is you :)  all i know right now is that i want to spent the rest of my life with you. and if i ever missed out on anything it was enjoying, loving, appreciating you to the max in the last 5 yrs. if i could go back boy would i change everything. except for the good times. you are the best thing that has happened to me. punk ass. i never saw me being this cheesy. but i guess this is love <3 and if i was a bit bitchy today it's only because i was a little jealous. i hate admitting it. i trust you i just don't trust skanky hos. feel me? lol.